Okay, so this is really happening. Surgery is tomorrow.
I went to lunch with Cindy from work for the “last supper.” I had a big old barbecue burger soaked in tons of catsup (surprise).
Life is really going to change once I get the lap band. It is extreme. I do like that my body will be able to absorb nutrients as always, unlike the gastric by-pass folks. But I will have to be more than diligent to be sure I eat enough to keep my body functioning properly.
Questions I have now are what about all the veggies I don’t like. Can I stick with the baby food forever? What about fiber. How do you get that into your body? I’m worried that I won’t be able to follow the program completely correct once I get into the pace of it.
I don’t want to spend all that money and then not have it work. That’s what I’ve done most of my life. Buy, buy, buy, quick fix, quick food, quick sex, quick relationships. Easy. Sure eeeaaasssy.
Is that all I’m about? Don’t really think so.
Tonight when I went to eat dinner I was so nervous I could even eat. That NEVER happens.
I’m scared.