After two days of my insides doing a wrestlefest, today I’m feeling better. I do feel like I just finished a marathon of sorts and my body is weak and sensitive, but much better. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers. My sister-in-law, Chandra, is the go-to person whenever I need medical advise. Naturally this is because she is a nurse and knows better about such things. She thought I did have a “kink” in the bowel and that the air was stuck, backtracking with nowhere to go, but my shoulder. I expected that kind of pain after the lap-band surgery,…

Thursday I got a fill with Dr. Curry. I was feeling pretty positive about everything. They have a new program they are starting with a medication that helps people feel even less hungry. The dietitian says she thinks I still haven’t hit the “sweet spot”. I guess it takes a long time to get there. Well, maybe I’m there. I can’t eat a thing – and don’t want to. I met with friends yesterday afternoon at Potbelly in downtown Cincinnati on Fountain Square. We had a really nice time. The only trouble is, I took one tiny bite of the…

Well, I think I lost a little weight, but not a whole heck of a lot. I look at the scale and it refuses to go under the one number I’ve been trying to go under since February. I’m two pounds away. Same old behaviors too are tripping me up. I do really well for about four or five days (during the work week I’m fine until Friday.) Then whammo, I see chocolate, I see sugar, I want I want I want. I keep telling my self, “don’t beat yourself up”. My weight is staying the same, within 2-5 pounds.…

I love the wedding dress, I really do. What I don’t like is my big fat body in the wedding dress. I don’t think a corset or spanks will make a difference. The reality is, I still don’t like myself and probably never will. Wonder if I can get comfortable with that idea. uh, nope. I went to my new lap band doctor’s office for a class with the dietitian/nutritionist. She was pretty inspiring. She is a two year out band patient who has lost 196 pounds. She looks fabulous. What she taught made a whole bunch of sense too.…

Where did the last two weeks go? It’s all a blur. A fun blur at that. Let’s start with the party – the Pester/Strange/Listermann/McCafferty party was quite a success. The food was incredible. We had a pot luck. One dish was better than the next. Food was everywhere. So was the laughter and camaraderie that family brings. All of Fred’s brothers and one sister, Joyce, were there with their spouses and Fred’s twin, Dave, brought his gorgeous grandchildren. His sister, Mary, from Lexington, was under the weather and unable to attend. We missed her. I made everyone step out of…