Dear Exceptional You, Morbid Obesity is a biological disorder and eating disorder as destructive as Anorexia. I’m updating my blog regarding my ongoing battle with this disease. I will be writing as authentically as possible. Maybe re-reading this blog will help you and me discover something new! I hope you find the journey interesting.
Original post regarding morbid obesity and me:
I think people look at those with anorexia as sympathetic creatures who are dying for beauty’s sake. I don’t think people look at the morbidly obese in the same way. We tend to be the ones that people mock and judge as having character flaws, lack of discipline and we should be ashamed. People with anorexia are thought to be sick, they need help. So do those of us who suffer from morbid obesity. The approach to any disease needs to be holistic. I’m determined to find my answer
My obesity is an illness I can’t control. I’ve determined this within the last week and a story I read in the Enquirer called, “Starving to Have No Size at All,” validated it. I have spent thousands of dollars and now have the lap band in me and still find myself struggling beyond belief.
I’m going to see the doctor today to try to stem the tide of the symptoms….again. I’m adding a new program to the band. I don’t know if it will work, but it’s worth a try. I’m kicking back into the exercising mode, slowly, but surely.
The term “mind over matter” is something I cannot maintain consistently. The depression I suffer is horrible. I don’t know what it’s like to be diabetic, but I’m sure the people who suffer from it wishes it would go away, but it never will. I’m beginning to believe that’s the case for me. I have to treat my obesity like a chronic disease. It will never go away. I have to medicate it using the current knowledge. Does a diabetic feel guilty for having the disease? I don’t know. Does a person who has any chronic condition feel guilty about it? There is such a stigma towards people who suffer from obesity. I hate that.